Im the female version of hagrid but uglier?

im an 18 year old girl, fat, bright red spots all over my face, squinty eyes, brittle hair, dry skin, thick, insignificant, i feel like just another statistic on this planet. il never get employed or married, nobody will love me. i might as well try and get J.K Rowling to pull a few strings and get me a part in harry potter as hagrids daughter. what can i do,i cant stand myself. it sounds like a joke but its not even though im hysterically laughing and crying as i type this out. help me